So Excited About Going Chemical Free

My husband is starting to think I’m going off the deep end. My bottle of Thieves household cleaner will be here Monday and I’ve already got all my plans for what I’m going to do with it! All these toxic chemicals are headed out of my house in exchange for safe, natural alternatives.

My immediate lists of DIY products using Thieves cleaner is:

1) all purpose household cleaner

2) glass/window cleaner

3) toilet cleaner

4) Wood floor cleaner to replace the swifter cleaner

5) Hand sanitizer (using thieves oil not household cleaner)

6) Thieves disinfecting wipes (like Clorox wipes but toxin free)

7) dishwasher tablets

8) Baby wipes – not using thieves but still on my list of to-dos

In the near future I also plan on making:

1) laundry detergent

2) fabric softener/dryer balls of some sort

3) shampoo

4) body wash

5) dish soap

** Young Living does have laundry detergent, soap and shampoo in their Thieves and ART lines. I am considering purchasing it, but am also looking into DIY methods to make my own**.

I can’t explain the feeling of wanting to get rid of all these super toxic things in my house. The more I research and read, the scarier it is!

Stay tuned for recipes, class invite and cost comparisons.


Getting Oily

After I had Logan, but before we found out we were pregnant with Lily, I started looking into essential oils to help with mood support and getting my kids to sleep. I’ve been teetering a fine line for awhile now between wanting to reduce my carbon footprint on this earth, and live a more natural lifestyle. I will admit that I was a complete skeptic when it came to essential oils, but I was sick and tired of paying the pharmaceutical companies to treat symptoms and not the underlying issue….so I thought what the hell.

My first instinct was that there was no way that “flower water” was going to help get my depression and anxiety under control or do any of the other things that I had been told it would. I mean the stuff I got at Whole Foods smelled good but didn’t do much besides give me a rash. You guys…..I was wrong! This is truly an instance where quality matters, and that $5 bottle of “lavender” was nothing more than fragrance. When I got my starter kit, one of the first things I did was set up the diffuser and put a few drops of lavender in before bed. I was amazed at how quickly it calmed and relaxed my normally out of control kids. I was even more amazed when my husband was snoring next to me in bed after saying it wasn’t doing anything for him. Next up I tried some oils topically to help with postpartum depression and anxiety. I was still taking my meds, but it helped so much that I was able to reduce my dosage and eventually drop meds all together.

When we found out we were having Lily, I started wearing peppermint oil and was able to avoid many of the smells that triggered HG. I would also put a drop under my tongue after I puked to get the nasty vomit taste out of my mouth. Since then I have used essential oils to help with allergy relief, we diffuse a blend called RC which has reduced the need for us to use a nebulizer on Luke for his asthma, I have rubbed essential oils on the kids jawline to help with teething pain (and avoided having to give Motrin), cured diaper rashes and calmed burns on my skin, relieved discomfort from ear infections, eased upset tummies and made bug spray.

And there is still so much more I want to try. I am getting ready to make a hair serum to see if I can really help my brother regrow his hair, am going to be making soaps and bath fizzes for the upcoming cold and flu season, make lotion to help my husband with suspected psoriasis……..and more!

I have caught the essential oils bug and I really, truly believe that every single person can benefit from their use!

I personally chose to enroll as a wholesale member with Young Living. When looking at the different companies, it was a no brainer when it came to selecting Young Living. They have significantly more single oils and blends than doTERRA does, you earn points through essential rewards for FREE oils (which you can also get through doTERRA), but you also get bonus gifts for various product value purchases, there is no annual fee, and also offer lines specifically for babies (seedlings) and other things like makeup and supplements. The biggest reason I chose young living is their commitment to quality. Young Living has the seed to seal program in which each step of the process from selecting the seeds to be grown to bottling the oils is heavily regulated by the highest of standards. I love that each batch of oils goes through 8 tests to ensure that it is nothing but the highest quality. I also love how Young Living doesn’t sacrifice quality for product and will scrap entire batches of oils that don’t hold up to their standards.

If I’m using essential oils on myself, and especially using them on my children I want nothing but the best. Yes, Young Living oils may be more expensive than the ones at Walmart, but you get what you pay for!

In an effort to go green and eliminate as many chemicals and toxins as I can from our lives, I am tossing out all of the household cleaners in exchange for Thieves cleaner which I can use on everything from floors, to windows, countertops to stove….and everything in between. I will not be subjecting my kids (or myself) to toxic chemicals anymore! I fought too damn hard for too damn long to get these precious boys here on earth, so why in the hell would I use products on them or around them that contain things that have been shown to cause cancer, irritate the skin and lungs and worse? I can’t do it to them!

Starting Friday, September 8th and lasting to the 15th, I am conducting an essential oils mommy and me class on Facebook. You are welcome to join if you want to learn ways you can use essential oils during pregnancy and on your babies and you to live a more natural, chemical free life. I’d love it if you joined us!

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My Tubes Are Gone

Surgery is done, and I am at home recovering…..well I’m currently sitting in bed with a 2 year old who took a nap from 4-7pm and now doesn’t want to go to bed at 1am. Any-who, my surgery went pretty well from a surgical standpoint.

We arrived to the hospital for checkin at 8:30am. After signing the consent forms, we (Ronny and I) were taken back to a room. I had to leave a urine sample for a pregnancy test – it was negative, and then put on the lovely surgery attire. My nurse for the morning happened to be the same nurse I had when they did the D&E to take Lily out. She remembered us from 7 weeks prior and commented how sorry she was we were going through all of this. I met with the surgical team as well. The doctor and anesthesiologist were the same ones that I had when I gave birth via c-section to Logan. How crazy is that!

I was finally taken back to the OR, where they had me scoot over onto the table and started all the prep work. Surgery was put on a mini hold when they couldn’t find a chlorhexidine free scrub to sterilize my belly. I drifted into La La land with the doctor holding my hand.

The entire surgery lasted just over an hour. My husband said I did really well. I barely got sick afterwards this time, but I did still have issues with tachycardia and shallow breathing. I had a major case of hives coming out of it and received numerous doses of Benadryl and something else to get it under control. I was also FREEZING, so they wheeled in a portable hot air blower thing to keep me warm.

The surgery itself went off really well. He decided to make the first incision next to my belly button instead of through my belly button because of previous surgeries there. He also made incisions near each of my hips. Once my tubes and a small amount of scar tissue from my c-section were removed, he did some exploring to make sure there wasn’t anymore scar tissue in my abdomen. There wasn’t! He was amazed because my belly button definitely looks like it’s being held in by scar tissue.

Physically, I hurt A LOT!! This is definitely a worse feeling than having Logan cut out of me and trying to recover from that. I can barely walk, laying down hurts and I feel like I broke my collar bone from the gas used to pump me up. It doesn’t help that Luke is constantly pushing on my belly because he doesn’t understand he can’t do that right now. I’m taking pain pills and whatnot, but they aren’t really cutting it.

Mentally, I’m doing okay. I’m at peace with our decision to have my tubes removed and are now looking to the future. Now that Whole Foods and amazon have merged, it will be interesting to see what happens with my husbands benefits package. Amazon covers infertility treatments through its insurance plan….whole foods does not. We’re kind of hoping that our policy stays mostly the same with the added fertility treatment coverage. If not, were looking at probably not being able to start ivf until next year.

It’s just a matter of time before my body is better

Logan’s 9 Month Appointment

As I sit here writing this, I am still amazed that I was blessed with this little boy…..and can’t believe that he is already 9 months old! Technically he has been 9 months old for 4 days now, but it still counts.

Stats: Logan is 24.5 inches tall (16%), 17 pounds 3.5 ounces (11%) and has a head circumference of 45cm (50%). His growth curve has taken a sharp decline, but the doctor isn’t super worried right now because he is doing so well with his physical and cognitive development. He gets plenty to eat in a day, so she thinks he’s just burning off his food really fast.

Logan has been crawling for months now, and is so close to walking on his own. He can walk along furniture and while holding onto someone’s hand but can’t quite keep himself upright yet on his own. He’s a very curious little boy and is always on some great adventure to discover the unknown. He loves to follow his brother around and try to do what his brother is doing.

Lo-Lo as we call him is such a good eater. We have been blessed that this little guy doesn’t appear to be allergic to anything (he does get a bit hivey if he sits in grass, but that isn’t often). We didn’t anticipate him skipping purees, but when he goes for his brothers food constantly it just sort of happened. Lo can eat though. He always seems to have something in his mouth…, bottle, whatever he stashed away for a snack. His all time favorite meal is pizza, and he doesn’t seem to care for sweet potatoes.

All in all, we are so incredibly blessed to be Logan’s parents. He is such a joy and we love watching him learn and grow.

Now if he would only stay little forever!

Salpingectomy is Scheduled

A week from tomorrow I am having my salpingectomy – a fancy term for having my Fallopian tubes removed. I definitely didn’t think it would be as soon as it is, but I am kinda glad that the doctors office is hustling to get it done. While tubal ligation surgeries are covered at 100% with our insurance, salpingectomies are a bit harder to get covered.

My OB’s office thankfully was on top of things and set up a peer-to-peer review to explain all of my health “things,” and why complete removal of my tubes rather than tying or burning them is the best option for us. Ultimately the insurance company agreed to not only cover the procedure, but agreed to cover it at 100%!

The procedure itself should be fairly simple. They’ll make 2-3 incisions in my lower abdomen, cut my tubes out and then stitch me up. The OB said it would be 10-14 day recovery period where I wouldn’t be able to lift the boys and might be in some pain. Ronny will be with me the day of the procedure, and will take me to my parents house on Friday, Saturday and Sunday while he is at work. Monday and Tuesday might be an issue, but he’s off again Wednesday and Thursday.

The biggest question people have is “how do you feel now that its scheduled?” Honestly, my feelings remain the same. I am relieved that I will have a less than 1% chance of conceiving on my own again. As crazy as it sounds after going through infertility, knowing that I won’t have another accidental pregnancy is a major weight off my shoulders. And part of me is sad that every attempt at a natural conception has ended in miscarriage, and I will (probably) never have to worry about it happening again.

Having a salpingectomy isn’t the end of our journey. In fact, by doing this we are giving ourselves the best chance at giving birth again. I’ve been talking to a clinic here in town and I am actually a pretty great candidate for a successful IVF treatment. We don’t have issues with getting pregnant. My eggs are great, hubby has super sperm, and my uterus is okay. Our problem is sustaining a pregnancy long enough to get to delivery. By ensuring that a prime embryo is implanted, we have the best shot at having 1 more baby.

I may go radio silence for a little bit, but I am still reading and following

What Comes Next For Our Family?

This past 5 months have been rough! From surprise pregnancy and handling all of the complications that came along with my pregnancies, to finding out we lost the baby….and everything in between, life got CRAZY. Now that we’ve had some time to process everything that has happened, we have made some pretty  big decisions as far as the future of our family goes.

For the past 5 weeks I have been taking a pregnancy test 1-2 times a week to make sure my HcG levels were dropping. I’m not sure why the doctors office decided they didn’t want to follow my levels down, but since they weren’t I did on my own. For the first 3 weeks, the second line on the pregnancy test got lighter. The test at 4 weeks out was darker than the one at 3 weeks, and the one at 5 weeks was even darker. We were highly concerned that I conceived again immediately after the D&E but before I could start on birth control pills.

I went in on Monday for a beta hcg test, but had to go back on Tuesday because the tube they used to draw my blood had expired the day before and the lab refused to run the test. I was supposed to come back in on Thursday to make sure the level was going down and not up. The past few days I have been spotting when I wipe but nothing major. This morning I had full heavy bleeding so I called in to see if they still wanted to do the second beta. The first one came back at 4, so they said with the bleeding I wouldn’t need to go in.

This left a big question for what we would do if we were to conceive again, and what should we do if we weren’t pregnant now. My husband and I discussed these two things at length for the past few weeks. We talked to each other, we talked to our doctors and we talked to our family members. At the end of the day, we have to put our children (both alive and future) and our family first and do what’s best for everyone.

We have decided that I will be having a salpingectomy – I will have my Fallopian tubes removed. After speaking in depth with my OB when I was pregnant with Logan and my OB for my pregnancy with Lily about what options we had. Given the fact that we have 2 living children out of 7 pregnancies, and the other health issues I have… is in our best interest to have my tubes removed to prevent pregnancy from occurring. There is less than a 1% chance of pregnancy with a tubal ligation, even less with complete removal of the tubes. It also comes with the added bonus of lowering my risk for ovarian cancer in the future. This will also mean that I will no longer be able to conceive naturally again.

We also discussed our options for having another child in the future, because I still would like to try for one more baby. We have no idea why we lost our first 4 miscarriages. The first 3 were attributed to a uterine septum, but that isn’t a guarantee. We have no idea why we lost the baby we conceived right before we conceived Logan. We have an educated guess as to why we lost Lily – a large portion of her placenta was not attached to my uterus, so we think that she was struggling to get the nutrients she needed to grow. My hyperemesis is also a suspected factor in malnourishment and dehydration contributing to her loss.

For these reasons, both doctors (and my husband and I) feel like our best option to have another child is to pursue IVF with genetic testing to make sure that whatever embryo(s) are implanted a genetically healthy, and make sure that my body is in a place where it can carry a pregnancy to term.

I have mixed feelings about all of this, as I am sure anyone would. Part of me is so incredibly relieved to not have to worry constantly if my birth control methods are going to fail and have to go through another pregnancy only to have it end in a loss. Another part of me is sad that this is the end of me getting pregnant on my own. We’ll never have a surprise pregnancy that ends with the birth of a child. Part of me is terrified that this is the end of our journey as far as having kids goes. I’m scared that we won’t be able to afford IVF, or that it won’t work and we’ll have spent tens of thousands of dollars and still not have a child out of it.

At the end of the day I have to remember that I am doing this to better the life of my children and my family, and pray that we can one day afford IVF.

My Baby is 2!?!?!?

I don't know where in the world time has gone. I can't believe that as of right this minute (scheduled to post at Luke's exact birth time) Luke came into this world. I remember a time when we didn't know if we would be able to have a baby, let alone be celebrating his 2nd birthday.

Luke is such an amazing little boy! He is so loving and kind. His smile lights up a room, and his laugh could make even the grumpiest of old people chuckle. Luke is intelligent, funny, inquisitive, compassionate, spirited, adventure seeking and an all around great kid. He loves to be around other people, and makes sure to say hello to everyone he sees. He loves to be around other children….watching what they do and making sure they are having a good time. Nothing is safe around here. Luke is so interested in learning about the world that he gets into everything!

Happy birthday my sweet prince. You have changed mommys world in ways you will never know. I love you now and always