Confession Time

Trying to conceive is a very personal journey for everyone. Some people (me included) are more public in their journey to parenthood than others. As open as I am about our journey to parenthood, there are things that I never told anyone (and probably never will). I absolutely love being a mommy. This is the hardest, and most rewarding job I have ever had.

When we were struggling to conceive every pregnancy announcement hit me like a ton of bricks. I was in one of the lowest of lows of my life. I saw people struggle to have one, go on to have number 2 and sometimes even 3 before I had yet to conceive number one. When I finally got pregnant, I felt (and even still feel) guilty for finally achieving one of my dreams, when so many others were still struggling.

Knowing how hurt I was by subsequent pregnancy announcements, I vowed to never spring a pregnancy announcement on anyone in the ttc community. Now before you freak out… I’m not pregnant. At this point my husband and I are not actively trying to get pregnant. That being said, we aren’t actively preventing another pregnancy at this point either. I have been taking an ovulation test daily, but have yet to see a positive or the return of Aunt Flow.

Revealing to the world that we are not trying, but not preventing is somewhat terrifying. I know that there are going to be people out there who think that trying again so soon is a horrible idea. Believe me when I tell you that my husband and I have been informed of the risks of conception so soon after delivery. We have discussed our options and feel that this is the best for our family.

We went through a lot to have Luke. Having gone through such heart ache and loss, I’m not at a place where I believe that we will be able to easily conceive again. At this point, our plan is to not try, but not prevent through the holidays. If we aren’t successful by February, we will start actively trying. If we still aren’t successful by the time Luke  turns 1 we will go back to the fertility clinic for assistance.


8 thoughts on “Confession Time

  1. Like you said, you two decided what is best for your family. Thats what counts. I really hope this time around is much easier than the last for you. Im sure it is scary to come forward with your intentions, but know you have support 💗


  2. You need to do what’s best for you guys. Nobody else can tell you what you should or shouldn’t do, or what is right or wrong. As one of my Drs said to me during a consultation…nobody else can tell you what you and your spouse decide is the best for YOU. YOU are the only one living your life. Everyone else just has to be there to support you and get you through. He was so right. This is your life, and you need to live it the best way you see fit. You can’t make everyone happy, so you need to make yourself happy first. 🙂

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  3. I completely understand where you are coming from. We went to the RE today to talk about the FET time line as we’re ready to start TTC for #2 and our daughter is just about 11 months now.

    I haven’t decided how I’m going to blog about it yet. I want to be open…but unfortunately some of my husband’s family members have this link and have big mouths and I’m not ready to deal with that again.

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  4. I agree with everyone above, you can only make the right decision for YOU! Your plan sounds totally reasonable to me and you two have made the decision together. That’s what matters. Good luck!

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