Yesterday’s trip to OB screening resulted in my being sent home after a failed attempt at morphine induced sleep. Today’s OB appointment ended essentially the same way minus the morphine. After a quick discussion and an attempt to check to see if my water broke, I had a giant gush of fluid as I slipped down to the end of the bed. They got a quick swab and ran to the lab to check it while I got my pants on and prepared to go upstairs for delivery.
The doctor came back and said that the test came back negative for amniotic fluid and yeast infection so they aren’t sure what the fluid is, and did an ultrasound. I still have tons if fluid indicating that my water has not yet broken. Cervical exam came back at still no change. While the doctor is hopeful that I should go into labor in a day or two, he scheduled me an appointment to come back next week and if I haven’t given birth by then they will schedule induction at 41 weeks.
At this point I am beyond frustrated and getting downright depressed. I keep reading about woman after woman who starts feeling contractions in the morning and having a baby by dinner time………yet here I sit having contractions for a month and literally no closer to delivery than I was a month ago. I’m fucking exhausted and don’t think I can take another 12 days of this! I feel like maybe infertility was a sign that my body wasn’t going to handle pregnancy very well. All I want to do is cry!